have you ever loved enough to destroy

mondays and wednesdays are the worst.

my earliest class isn't til 10, which is cool...but my last class ends at 530. it just feels like the day will neeevveerr end.

but there is one thing that makes wednesday worth while:

LOST! and starting next week, i believe, the new season of scrubs is being moved from tuesday to wednesday at 8, so i get that and then lost right after. also, since i only have one class on thursdays and it's not til 1230, i dont have to worry about getting up early.

today in yoga, after we moved for about 40 minutes we went into shavasana, as usual, for a little more than 5 minutes. basically, you just lay there motionless and pay attention to your breathing. i think about it a little like its reclined meditation. anyway, i fell asleep...my bad. my teacher says it will happen to everyone at least once this semester but it's supposedly a yellow flag that says you probably aren't getting a good nights rest (tell me something i don't know, alison donley). shavasana is supposed to be alert relaxation...not, well, sleeping. oh well! i'll get plenty of rest tonight to make up for it.

i'm feeling better than i did yesterday. this wonderful weather we're having certainly helps, i just really wish it would stick. i'm so ready for spring. summer is too hot for me but spring is my favorite.

shake your body like a salmon floating upstream

had kind of a late night with some friends last night. we watched Winter Passing and the majority of the first season of weeds.

at one point the guys from my friends floor brought out their video games and entertained us for awhile. i ended up leaving around 5 am.  i really need to get back to a normal sleeping pattern.

i've been feeling really nostalgic lately. maybe it's because so much has changed since summer. i dont know...i think i just wish that some things could be how they used to.

that weight of nostalgia on my shoulders is familiar to me, the extra weight on top is somewhat new.

coming to college and not knowing anyone, i had become unbelievably close with one girl who has a mood disorder and plenty of other problems to deal with.  through time i learned how to help her and she learned to help herself.  however, i have a much newer friend with VERY similar problems, but she is different.

when we first started hanging out she was happy as a clam and i could never have imagined her like this.  now, she either always seems angry or sad, and every time i go to see her she is asleep. granted, she's had a rough past week.

i am worried about her and i'm not sure what to do. i don't know her well enough to know how to help. right now i feel like i'm stepping on eggshells whenever she is around...like if i even make a joke she'll get angry at me.

why do i always make other peoples problems my own?

i wish i could take all the bad things my friends are dealing with and make them my own so they could be as happy as they want to be.

if i smoked cigarettes, now would be a good time to have a pack.

downtown bonanza

i used to enjoy going home for weekends and i'd never want to come back to school, but now the thought of missing a weekend here makes me sad.

i'm feeling like i need a serious break from my lifestyle as of late. i've been running off of about 3 hours of sleep from last night...not good.

it's nice to be sitting in my room in my bed without people around for a change. i think everyone needs to be able to make time for themselves just to clear their mind.

the weather today and yesterday was amazing, but makes me just wish it were spring even more.

"spring" break is only a couple weeks away! that means visiting my sister, working with my favorite kids, and a tattoo! (hopefully)

i found out today that by the time the may french creek rolls around, i'll be done school!

...counting down til the week of april 27th. yesss.

pink moon is on its way

i recently realized why i was in a relationship for nearly 3 and a half years.

it's because being single blows. i didn't miss the excess guy drama one bit.

i always hated girls. they're so catty and mean to each other, and i'm not really proud to say that i am 100% one of them...but, i'm beginning to like them more. (depending on the girl, of course.)

last night i hung out with some newly acquired friends at a dorm nearby. we watched mary poppins and drank fishbowls (much more appetizing than it sounds...). tonight we're having a slumber party, which i am in need of more than anything right now.  an overabundance of pillow talk is a must-have for this week.

pretty much every school north and south of us has off...except for us.

i love going to class, just to have my teacher tell me that it's cancelled.

and the email service won't work, because everyone is trying to log on at once sssoo how am i supposed to know if i don't have class?

not feeling that whole...going to class on south campus. i don't really trust those buses on that super hilly road when everything up here is coated in ice.

if i fall and break my arm, can i sue the school?

one of those weeks

have you ever had a day where you're just so happy, and even if something bad happens it just doesn't seem to bother you? my entire week so far has been like that.  everything is just good, in general. i feel comfortable in all aspects of my life, and i think i'm even coming to terms with the single life, as weird as it may feel.

it's good. i like this.

though i know it probably won't last that much longer, it never does.

i still need someone to cut my bangs.

"it's tuesday night!"

second week of school. it's going pretty well so far, actually. i think this semester will be better than last, but i'm pretty positive i'll be getting a bio tutor sometime in the next couple days.

trying to ignore all the stupid high school drama going on around me...and surprisingly succeeding.

i've been craving a real philly cheesesteak for a week or two now. i think a trip to pat's is in my near future. since weight doesn't just lose itself, i found a few new gym buddies that i hope will stick since i'm too scared to go by myself. also, i'm taking a yoga class and loving it.

i'm going to talk to my advisor today about declaring a nutrition minor.

i got to see a bunch of people last night that i haven't seen much in the past month or so.

i know it's waaaay early, but i'm already looking into grad schools and apartments out in oregon, because i would love nothing more than to be on my own in a new place for a little while, near family that i don't see as often as i'd like.  though, there is a possibility that if i go, i wouldn't be coming back...but i guess that's not the worst thing that could happen.

on a more fun note..guess what's on tonight!!