at one point the guys from my friends floor brought out their video games and entertained us for awhile. i ended up leaving around 5 am. i really need to get back to a normal sleeping pattern.
i've been feeling really nostalgic lately. maybe it's because so much has changed since summer. i dont know...i think i just wish that some things could be how they used to.
that weight of nostalgia on my shoulders is familiar to me, the extra weight on top is somewhat new.
coming to college and not knowing anyone, i had become unbelievably close with one girl who has a mood disorder and plenty of other problems to deal with. through time i learned how to help her and she learned to help herself. however, i have a much newer friend with VERY similar problems, but she is different.
when we first started hanging out she was happy as a clam and i could never have imagined her like this. now, she either always seems angry or sad, and every time i go to see her she is asleep. granted, she's had a rough past week.
i am worried about her and i'm not sure what to do. i don't know her well enough to know how to help. right now i feel like i'm stepping on eggshells whenever she is around...like if i even make a joke she'll get angry at me.
why do i always make other peoples problems my own?
i wish i could take all the bad things my friends are dealing with and make them my own so they could be as happy as they want to be.
if i smoked cigarettes, now would be a good time to have a pack.
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